I hit "New Tab", but all that came up was the same old spam.

Well, happy new year, I guess. I was starting to get a little pumped (a little) about 2011, and the fresh start from the previous horrible year full of devastation. Then bam. Heart attack. Off to the funeral home; one aunt's dead and the other's gonna go any day. It's frustrating when you keep getting your hopes up, only to fall back into the same rigorous monotony-filled loneliness of my so-called life. I really don't know how many more times I can do this. I've got my fingers crossed that all of these mysterious bird and fish deaths are the beginning of an apocalyptic world in which society gets turned upside-down and I will reign triumphant as the sole survivor of the entire universe. Solipsism FTW.